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It was night. As usual, our shop was the last to close. This shopping centre no longer enjoyed the crowd it used to have years ago and most shops close early. Ours, for some unknown reason, abided by our opening and closing hours of 6am to 9pm faithfully (or stupidly depending on how you see it).

“Clip clip clip,” I heard that familiar clicking of heels on the tiled floor. Aunt Lucy was here. I never liked her for she had a sharp tongue and no one was spared from her insulting sarcasm. My sister liked her though (birds of the same feathers flock together), what more can i say. She didn’t come alone. Her husband, Uncle Lionel, stood beside her as well as her brother, Uncle Tony. They looked serious and uptight. Something was wrong.

“We need to talk.” Aunt Lucy said curtly and looked pointedly at Mum.

Mum nodded and told me to look after the shop with forced casualness. She wouldn’t look at me in the eye.

“What lousy acting, something must be up!” I thought in my heart but aloud I said, “Sure. Come back soon! I’ll tidy the shop first.” and pretended to busy myself with baskets of clothing. As soon as their shadows whipped pass the corner, I called my sister and together we closed the shop hurriedly and sneaked out after them.

We found them outside the building on the front porch. Hiding behind the staircase, we eavesdropped.

“He’s back.” Aunt Lucy whispered. It was a statement, not a question. Her voice was filled with dread, like how a person might sound to know that the inevitable has come.

“Yes, I know. I felt him.” Mum replied, in an equally hushed and dread-filled tone.

“What can we do? Why now? Why again?” She was close to breaking down. I never saw her this vulnerable before. “We can’t let the children know. It’s too dangerous for them.” Aunt Lucy decided, her voice a little stronger now with something in mind to protect.

“No, Lu. Letting the children know is the best way to protect them!” Uncle Lionel protested.

“But it’s too dangerous! What if -”

“Wait. Someone’s eavesdropping.” Uncle Troy interrupted in his matter-of-fact tone. Damn, I knew he had psychic powers! I would sometimes see him talking to people I can’t see and it creeps me out.

We knew we were busted and meekly trooped out from behind the staircase. Aunt Lucy made a sort of strangled sound and I was going to steer her off with some crap but before either of us could say anything, my sister gasped and her face went pale. I looked at her and at my relatives, who were all wearing the same mask of terror. I was confused at first. What, they got tricked by my sister’s acting? Since when could she act anyway? But now I felt the air turning colder, felt the tentacle-like evil infused air brush my cheeks and I realise that this was no act. I recoiled in horror and following the direction in which everyone’s gaze was transfixed, i saw framed in a window in one of the high-rise buildings across the street, the dreaded hooded figure staring at all of us.

“You can see him?” Aunt Lucy’s lips were barely moving.

“Yes,” my sister said, almost like in a trance. “I can sense him, feel him.”

“Yes,” Aunt Lucy replied, dazed. “We all can.”

“Except me.”

Surprise surfaced beneath the mask of terror on my family’s face except my sister’s but no further questions were asked. We were all too captivated by the hooded figure.

And so in the night, six figures were seen standing in the moonlight, staring at something the passers-by couldn’t see. They are waiting, but for what? None of them knew the answer. In their guts, they sensed a disaster fast approaching and they can do naught about it. I watched as the hooded figure turned and disappeared from the window. I wonder what will happen when he appears again.
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And we come to the end of my frigging long nightmare.

Part 1
Part 2

Follow up by TrueStoriesNot- From the Attacker

there once lived a shark,
beneath the seven seas.
he courted many,
and many desired him.

he seeked solace in many arms (fins?),
but that’s all he could find.
unsatisfying short company,
not the harbour he had in mind.

the home in which he longed to stay,
was not found till he met the pufferfish.
and together they built a home
with baby puffersharks, a new species!

inspired by
Annabel Lee by Edgar Allan Poe

what hides behind those eyes
what goes on in your mind?
the neon lights cast you in ghastly green
or perhaps, that is the true color of your skin?

in a dream i dreamt long ago
you tore down the blue carribean sky
and drained the turquoise sea.
over the squeals of fishes you bellowed and raged,
that the world was imagined.

and that you and me were as fake as could be
i could stab you and you could me
for pleasure, pearls or sympathy
or are you just being self-reassuring?

for you who tore down the sky and drained the sea
who raged for all to see
still harboured hope, however small,
and is nothing compared to the betrayal planned
by the angel who vowed to stay
by the human who swore to hope
by the girl who claimed to loved

by me.

inspired by TrueStoriesNot.

We ran, gasping for air, through the swing doors and a blast of cold air-con air greeted us. The building gave us a false sense of security even though we both know damn well brick and mortar wouldn’t stop him. I chanced a look behind.

He was gone.

The crowd was still there, in their bubble of happiness and normalcy. It was uncanny how the crowd couldn’t see him. They couldn’t even seem to sense him for goodness sake! Could they at least have the decency to feel something ominous nearby, or perhaps sense his overbearing evil aura and stop shouting and screaming so happily like nothing was wrong. The louder and happier they sound, the more helpless I felt. It was mockery. I envy them. Why were we kicked out of that bubble? Why were we chosen? Ignorance really is bliss. Were my sister and I the only ones who could see him? There was no one to turn to for help. Filled with despair, I turned my head towards my sister. She had gotten off worse than me. Shaking like a leaf, she gave me a look and I looked into hollow eyes which I knew were identical to mine.

We trudged up to the fourth floor where our family-owned laundry business was. This was not the first time we saw him. I still remember the first. It was evening and we were taking a shortcut behind the shophouses. My sister felt his presence first. Like a compass pointing North, she turned and pointed wordlessly behind, her face a mask of terror. I looked in the general direction and after a bit of searching I saw that hooded figure on the upper floor window looking down at us.

His presence was suffocating, like evil had infused the air and caused it to rebel by not providing the oxygen I so desperately need. The air around him was darker, denser, and seemed to have tentacles that reached out to you. Somehow we managed to run away and in denial, dismissed the incident as a mere hallucination. We never brought this subject up but we never walk that alley again.

Since then, we’d been seeing it more frequently, and it was always my sister who sensed him first. She seemed to have a connection with him, similar to the Harry Potter and Voldemort connection (though it was discomforting to think that he could sense our presence too). I, on the other hand, had to depend on my sister to know exactly where he is but I sense the evil vibes he gave off clearly enough to know when he’s in the vicinity.

*

We put on cheerful dispositions as we walked into the shop. Sister bustled to iron clothes in the back room while I plonked down in the nearest chair.

“How’s business?” I asked Mum in an aloof manner.

Mum reprimanded me for being lazy and gave me a light smack on my hand. I simply smiled mischievously, folded my arms and pretended to sleep. I’m not going to leave Mum’s side. My sister and I agreed to protect Mum and everyone from him should he appear again. We had no idea how to but standing guard should be a good starting point.

*

For those of you who don’t know, this is one of my rare nightmares. A full blown story. wow.

Part 1
Last part

“There!” my younger sister gasped and pointed to the left.

I spun and looked in the direction she pointed. My panicked eyes searched the scene before me. Parents taking their toddlers for a walk, children playing by the water feature, couples sitting on benches… where? and suddenly I spotted him.

A lone hooded figure looking like Death the Grim Reaper but without the scythe stood unmoving just slightly behind the last lamppost as the next lamppost disappeared behind the bend. His face was shrouded in shadows but there was without a doubt he was staring at us, and only at us.

It felt like time stopped when we locked eyes (or perhaps I imagined I am looking into his eyes because I couldn’t even see his face). My body stiffened as terror gripped me. You remember the fear you felt before an exam you were unprepared for? Or perhaps the thought of jumping off a cliff to do the flying fox when you’re afraid of heights? Or the despair when you realised that this was not within your control and it was going to happen regardless of what you do. This was a time when I felt all three at once but amplified a thousand times more.

Noises became muffled and entered my ears in slow-mo, dragging each tone, each pitch to an unbelievable slow speed till I did not even know what is was that I’m hearing. Was it my blood pumping? Perhaps. I am aware of a vein jumping at my temple, and my heart pounding extra hard in my ribcage as adrenaline spurred by fear coursed through my body. I was trying to steady my breathing, letting air out from my mouth in short quiet breathes, like breathing too noisily might be a trigger for it to attack. Instinct took over as I reached out, took my sister’s hand in my own numb one and took a small tentative step, then two, backwards. Soon we were breaking into a run for the shopping mall behind us.

Part 2
Last part

The Moon

Posted on: November 8, 2009

i run around you in full circles
circling and circling
going nowhere
like the moon orbiting the earth

but i hope to escape
coz we can never collide

even though that would be nice
to end in destruction
and to break into a million pieces with you
for people to place their wishes on

sometimes i do not know what i’m doing.
my heart is gone.
i like to do things opposite.
i like to walk the hard way.
i do not like things to come easy.
i like to torture myself.

i like to be the death of you.
and indeed i will.
someday you will hate me.
for there’s something i’m not telling you.

on purpose maybe
accidently no.
i just like to distance myself away from you.
for i do not like things to go easy
i like to torture myself.
and you had no choice (actually you do)
but to go along with my tiffany twisted mind.

we’re like poles
we repel
for i do not like things to go easy.
i like to torture myself.


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